i wake up one morning and say, “shit. this is what i look like.”
i know something then. something about myself. perhaps i always have.
i know i’m not what i could be if i dared not to care what others thought of me.
i know that my fundamentals will remain stashed in my slacks for the rest of my days. i know i’m ashamed of them. that i’d be locked away for indecent exposure if ever i showed them.
sighing feels like too much effort.
i stop looking in the mirror for fear of losing myself.
First published on Hijacked Amygdala
image and text © Tony Single 2016